This year starts quietly.Not because I don’t have plans, but because I don’t want to rush emotionally. If I’m being honest, 2025 started with me feeling pretty lost. I didn’t really know where things were going, and that made me uncomfortable. I kept moving anyway, mostly by trial and error, figuring things out as I … Continue reading 2025 Taught Me Enough. 2026 Is About Choosing.
Hari Ibu, dan Hubungan yang Nggak Selalu Mudah Dijelaskan
Ada hari-hari tertentu yang bikin kita mikir ulang soal hubungan yang kita jalani. Salah satunya 22 Desember, yang diperingati sebagai Hari Ibu. Hari Ibu biasanya datang dengan gambaran yang cukup jelas.Ucapan manis. Bunga. Foto keluarga yang kelihatan rapi.Dan buat banyak orang, itu memang cocok. Tapi ada juga yang setiap Hari Ibu datang, rasanya agak… bingung.Bukan … Continue reading Hari Ibu, dan Hubungan yang Nggak Selalu Mudah Dijelaskan
When Effort Becomes a Question
There’s a quiet moment when effort stops feeling natural and starts feeling heavy. Not because you’re counting who does more, but because you realize you’re the one still checking the calendar, sending the message, and making sure something actually happens. At first, you tell yourself it’s normal. People get busy. Life happens. So you adjust, … Continue reading When Effort Becomes a Question
Food, Feelings, and Everything in Between.
"Food is a love language" Buat gue, makan itu lebih dari sekadar kebutuhan buat bertahan hidup. Itu adalah proses yang penuh makna, momen di mana koneksi terbentuk, dan cara gue memahami dunia di sekitar gue. Orang-orang yang kenal gue pasti tahu betapa pentingnya “makan” dalam hidup gue. Gue bisa tiba-tiba cranky atau tiba-tiba diam kalau … Continue reading Food, Feelings, and Everything in Between.
To The One Who’s Doing The Heart Work
"Thank you for being really genuine about things" There's this someone who keeps saying thank you for everything that I did. Let me do my part this time 🙂 Thank you for showing up every day, quietly and steadily putting your heart into everything you do. Even when it feels like no one’s watching, or … Continue reading To The One Who’s Doing The Heart Work
Cheering From The Sidelines
"Ayooo ayoo, let's go, sedikit lagi, last push!" Gue nggak pernah lari marathon, jadi gue nggak tahu gimana rasanya terengah-engah ngejar garis finish. Tapi pagi ini, gue berdiri di cheering zone, bareng orang-orang yang sama semangatnya kasih support ke pelari yang udah ada di titik-titik terakhir—300m terakhir sebelum garis finish. Kelihatan banget beberapa dari mereka … Continue reading Cheering From The Sidelines
The Unfinished Dream
“Apa yang membuat kamu merasa perlu untuk lanjut S2 setelah 9 tahun bekerja? Kenapa baru sekarang?” Itu pertanyaan yang dilemparkan ke gue saat interview LPDP beberapa hari yang lalu—interview LPDP gue yang ketiga. Anehnya, kali ini rasanya lebih "pasrah" dibanding sebelumnya. Sejak lulus kuliah di tahun 2015, gue selalu punya keinginan buat lanjut sekolah. Tapi, … Continue reading The Unfinished Dream
Embracing The Messy Part of Life: Learning to Be Okay When Things Don’t Go Your Way
I used to think I had it all figured out. I knew where I was headed, what I wanted to achieve, and how I’d get there. But this year? It didn’t go as planned. Not even close. I failed to get into the master's program this year. I got rejected by LPDP -- twice. The … Continue reading Embracing The Messy Part of Life: Learning to Be Okay When Things Don’t Go Your Way
A self-reflection: When Disappearing Becomes a Way to Survive
Why do I always disappear when things get tough? It’s a question I’ve asked myself countless times. I’m not a fan of being alone, but my first instinct is to pull away whenever everything feels overwhelming. Not because I enjoy it, but because it’s easier than having to explain what’s really going on to others. … Continue reading A self-reflection: When Disappearing Becomes a Way to Survive
Belajar Untuk Mulai Lagi
Gue akhirnya kembali ke blog ini setelah sekian lama. Sumpah, niat buat nulis lagi atau bikin konten tuh udah ada sejak lama. Berkali-kali kepikiran, “Ah, besok aja deh,” atau, “Kayaknya gue nggak punya waktu buat nulis.” Dasar manusia banyak excuses, bikin niat buat ngonten lagi jadi tertunda terus. Ada beberapa moment gue kayak kangen juga … Continue reading Belajar Untuk Mulai Lagi
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